Mum,

If only you can see how happy she makes me,

I guess you will understand....

Love is love...

Counting down

its 5am in the morning and im still awake...

It feels like years thou its only been days..
i spent every single heart beat missing you...
and i'm so so so in love with you that i wanna spend
every waking moment in your arms,
kissing you, appreciating you..

i love you baby... and i wanna be forever yours...
and yours to hold, to love and to keep...

i will wait patiently, and i will be there when you return...

Yours truly,
Rui

only yours

A note with such beautiful words,
written through hands of an angel,
Every word, struck my heart and sank deep into it..
It was the moment i knew,
I can love this person for a very long time...
And you, capable for loving me too...

Six months and stronger then ever,
we survived without a fight,
everyday, we are surrounded by smiles and laughter,
every chance that we had, our hands would fit perfectly into each others',
every kiss, so passionate,
every intimacy, so magical... 
I couldn't ask for a better lover...

Like a tree,
you let me to lean on and never allowed me to fall,
only exceptions of me falling deeper in love with you..
I found comfort in your touch, through your love...
Your eyes were always gentle with every stare,
It's the kind that i could look into for hours and fall deeper with every second..
Your tone was always soothing, 
and the fact that you never ever raised your voice towards me,
i'd be an absolute fool to try to provoke a fight..

Of all these small little things,
I found my sanctuary,
Where you are, is where i wanna be,
I found myself safest in your embrace,    
and me too, would wanna be only yours... 

3 months and still counting

After 2 years of searching, God has blessed me, with you..

An angel in disguise,
Sweet, loving, understanding and mature.
Thru you, i have learnt so much.
Ive grew even more.
I must say, you are the most patient person i have ever met.
at least to me.
Every night, you tuck me in with thoughts of your sweet loving.
And every morning, I would wake up with a smile knowing that you love me.
Now, even thou you are not by my side physically, i know you are always in my heart n mind.

there is not a moment, that i feel insecure, that i'm having doubts, about us, about you.
That is just how amazing you are.
That is how happy you made me.
That is how i picture its gonna be, always..

The fact that I have only nice things to say about you,
overwhelms me in so many ways...
you are the only one i need,
n i believe its enough..
you made me wanna give my all,
and to love you with all my heart,
and deny whatever comes between us...

I love you, baby.. truly, always...

right at the wrong time

well, what can i say.. You really went ahead burning my notes away... and while doing it, you had to watsapp me the picture, then the following day its up on your instagram and fb.
Wow, sometimes people just never fail to amaze me.

I felt rather down lately, i do not know how to describe it, nor put it in words.
Maybe i'm disappointed with how you dealt with the whole situation, you acted childish, not quite what i expected. but den again, nobody's perfect.

Rumours about you, i heard too much. people i love, people i cared, asked me to stay away, from you. they said, i deserved better. i'd do so much better without you. do not blame them, they're concerned. what am i without them.

the truth is, i believe there's still good in everyone, i believe theres still some left in you. maybe. and maybe you acted crazy, cuz you do have feelings for me. but then again, its still unfair to me, it ain't gonna change the fact.

sighs.... Right at the wrong time...

She's always gonna be there, isn't she?

D

waking up beside you,
you are still sound asleep.
looking at you breathing slowly,
your chest moving up and down in pace,
your body is hidden under the sheets....

You look graceful when you sleep,
your eyes closed which only showed how long are the lashes,
i sighed cuz for one second i thought,
if only you were mine.. it'll make me the happiest person alive...
but at the end of the day, its just too good to be true..

i know i can't deal with another heartache,
so i tried to let go, it was fine at the beginning..
but everytime i see you, waves are crashing in again,
and i was like 'shit! its happening again'
there is nothing i could do about it,
helplessly letting my heart take over my mind...

*sighs*
really liked you, and could have loved you..