right at the wrong time

well, what can i say.. You really went ahead burning my notes away... and while doing it, you had to watsapp me the picture, then the following day its up on your instagram and fb.
Wow, sometimes people just never fail to amaze me.

I felt rather down lately, i do not know how to describe it, nor put it in words.
Maybe i'm disappointed with how you dealt with the whole situation, you acted childish, not quite what i expected. but den again, nobody's perfect.

Rumours about you, i heard too much. people i love, people i cared, asked me to stay away, from you. they said, i deserved better. i'd do so much better without you. do not blame them, they're concerned. what am i without them.

the truth is, i believe there's still good in everyone, i believe theres still some left in you. maybe. and maybe you acted crazy, cuz you do have feelings for me. but then again, its still unfair to me, it ain't gonna change the fact.

sighs.... Right at the wrong time...

She's always gonna be there, isn't she?

D

waking up beside you,
you are still sound asleep.
looking at you breathing slowly,
your chest moving up and down in pace,
your body is hidden under the sheets....

You look graceful when you sleep,
your eyes closed which only showed how long are the lashes,
i sighed cuz for one second i thought,
if only you were mine.. it'll make me the happiest person alive...
but at the end of the day, its just too good to be true..

i know i can't deal with another heartache,
so i tried to let go, it was fine at the beginning..
but everytime i see you, waves are crashing in again,
and i was like 'shit! its happening again'
there is nothing i could do about it,
helplessly letting my heart take over my mind...

*sighs*
really liked you, and could have loved you..

time to face it, coward

this is the moment that i've been waiting for and afraid to face at the same time.
confession, is really a bitch. it makes my heart race so damn fast.
it makes breathing seems damn hard. it makes me wonder am i doing the right thing.
but i know, this is wat i gotta do. oh gosh...
i used to be brave, i used to have all my guts, i used to dive in whenever i want to.
but now.. i got so timid, i'm afraid to face my feelings, i'm a coward.
n right now, i knew i couldn't hide it any longer, its time to let it out.
i hope for the best. God bless.

Miss you like crazy

i miss u once in a while
i miss u once we're apart..
i miss u when u're gone
i miss u after we said goodbye..

i miss u day and night
i miss u even though we dun fight
i miss u when u left
i miss u cuz u're coming back

i miss u and its a fact
i miss u till i slept
i miss u cuz my heart misses u
i miss u cuz my mind thinks of u

i miss u like all the time
i miss u and i'm counting the time
i miss u like crazy
i miss u cuz missing u makes me lazy

i miss u in so many ways
and i do hope,
u're d same...

thoughts

it has been an unforgettable few days with u.. i can feel the connection between us is stronger now.. those small little moments meant alot to me.. but den again, should i tell u? hmmm... or should i keep it this, letting things flow on its own.. its been 15 hours, n i guess... i miss u already..

dun leave?

glad that u're back.. i'm more den happy to see u, we hanged out.. i enjoyed joking with u... i guess its more den enuf dis way.. n the fact tht in the cinema, the natural way of us sitting so close... in the sense of a little bit of body contact, it felt comfortable..
i dun know whether i'll ever tell u dat i do like u.. cuz i'm unsure whether do i want more den that or not.. despite of my own selfishness dat i wan u for myself, i think i do need to spare a thought for u as well. wat if everything changed after that? i'm sick n tired of ppl coming in n out of my life, i'm tired that after letting them in, but in the end all they wanna do is leave.. aren't u sick of these?
God send these ppl for a reason, and for what reason i think its up to me to figure it out.. but theres got a way to keep them from leaving rite?