no rush

for the first time, i realized that there is no need to rush but to enjoy the process and get to know someone better. i felt more comfortable this way, there is no need to pretend, i can be who i am and just have fun. enjoy spending time with the person u like without thinking where it'll bring us. following the flow, take each day as it comes, it is a great feeling. thou i really do feel exited when i'm with dat someone, but not knowing what will happen keeps me looking forward. at least, it keeps me happy, it makes me ponder and smile for no reason. being in a situation like dis, might be a blessing after all. i'm pretty much sure i'm not in a denial mode, there is no disappointment, there is no agony. relationship or not, it doesn't matter at all. i dun wanna rush i dun wanna force it. cuz i know, if it is meant to be, eventually it will be.

时间

和你相处，
你总是让我有心跳的感觉。
不知道，是我隐藏得好，还是你看不出来。
总之， 我不想吓坏你。

我需要时间了解你

flames

so many times, we have crossed paths.. studying in d same school, knowing the same friends, being in the same place.. and yet, i didn't notice, i didn't know, that you were there. timing, is really unexpected and unpredictable. under circumstances, i got to know u. it makes joining the event worthwhile. it's really funny how God works. we always say that He does something for a reason.. and slowly, as time goes by, we need to figure it out by ourselves by experiencing it. how would i know by helping out my friend, in return i gained so much more?
how u caught my eye is something i couldn't explain, the way u brought urself makes me wanna know u more. i don't expect u to feel d same way as i do, but at least you gave me a chance to get to know u, n its enough.. it really is.. for all i know, u could be another angel sent by God to be in my life, no matter for what reason, i'll accept it with open arms..
i thank God for everything He had planned for me. and forever i will.. thank you Lord~

A candle loses nothing by lighting another candle
when the candle burned out,
all u need is another candle, another flame
to light up the darkness.

Question: Are you willing to be that new flame?

a random post

was it really love? or jz loneliness triggers my mind to think that i still love u? but why, out of so many people i could have thought of, i think of u? is it because i missed the closeness? the intimacy? or my mind is just playing tricks with me again?
however, i do not have the exact answers to these questions.. complicated, i'm trying to figure it out... everytime when someone new comes by, it took my mind off u.. it could be temporary, it could be permanent... i don't know... now to think of it, i dun really know u anymore..

国强，一路顺风

突然，有感而发，想起当年在学记度过的日子。
当年的我们，只有16岁，大家同心协力把学记队带向另外一个高峰。当时的我们，个个都是那么有冲劲，那么雄心勃勃。每个星期，都到报馆报道，开会，筹备活动。为的，是让学记队一年比一年出色。甚至连郊区的学记，不惜乘搭一小时多的巴士，来报管报道。大家一起工作，一起办营，无形中建立了一段-友谊。渐渐的，大家变得不陌生了。慢慢的，大家团结了起来。然而，多年以后，各自有了不一样的生活，往不同的方向驶去。工作的工作，深造的深造，相信大家心里，仍然有着对学记的这一份感情。
我们十七届的国强哥，就要到瑞士深造啦！大家都为他叙别，见到多年不见的朋友，仍然都没有距离的谈了起来。大家、有说有笑，嘘寒问暖，仿佛又回到了当年。更可贵的是，前辈学记，后辈学记，也出席了。

是学海，让我们相识，相知，相惜。
是学海，把我们紧紧地拉在一起。
是学海，让我们拥有了这一段友谊。
是学海，让我们拥有了这一段美好的回忆。
学海，是我们永远的家。
谢谢你，学海。

国强，你要好好的照顾自己。一路顺风。

坏人，你敢爱吗？

faded memories of u and i, came flooding in when i bumped into u again, i asked myself, how can this be? are u a good guy? am i doing the right thing? under the conditions of uncertainties, i wish i knew what to do...

u can bring me up, or u can bring me down, u can make me happy, u can disappoint me.
i wonder, if i step off that edge, if i leave dis comfort zone of mine, will i end up in happiness or agony?

Dear Lord, i'm lost n helpless, i need a direction... i turn to u, for advise, for salvation... for You are my God, my everything Lord.. lead me, guide me, show me the way... tell me what to do...

我不爱你了

我做错了吗？
爱你，疼你，关心你，错了吗?
不想你伤心难过,所以安慰你.
至少当全世界背叛了你,你还有我.
但你,却把我拒于千里之外.甚至说我假惺惺.
这些我都算了,毕竟也不是第一次了.
然而,我是多么想念当初的你.

乘经, 你是我的太阳,给我温暖.
乘经, 你是我的太阳,给我希望.
而当你离开的时候,你把太阳,问暖,和希望都一起带走了.
剩下的, 我的世界, 就只有一片黑暗.

我靠着自己的力量,
慢慢的,一步一步走出你的阴影,
因为我知道, 太阳不会再照亮着我,
我的世界,也不会因你而再次地恢复.
我只有我自己.我只能靠我自己.
每当向朋友倾诉,
他都会说,当没有了全世界,你还有自己.
你要为自己而活,不是为别人.
爱人,但要更爱自己.
听了,我有听.

你,趁经是我的全部, 是我的唯一, 是我的最爱.
不过,你也是伤我最深的人,
令我伤心难过的人, 令我又爱又恨的人.
终有一天,我会大声地告诉你 "我不爱你了"