Hey baby,
Do you remember?
At the 6th month of our relationship, you wrote me a beautiful note along with a box of chocolates..
You said:
'In this half a year, there's not one day that my mind is absent of your face. You bring tranquility in me. And you brought joy into my life. You complete me.
I wouldn't change this, what we have, for anything. And i hope, wait.. rephrase.. i'm sure our love will keep growing. but i do wanna be only yours.'
It still brings smiles to my face everytime i read it, and i can still feel your love baby. Today, as I wrote this post, I am not angry nor i am sad, but full of gratitude and gratefulness that i ever made you feel this way. This separation made me love you even deeper, and it strengthens my faith that one day baby, you will find your way home to me.
And i know while focusing on us, I have forgotten to love myself, hence it imposed stress on you, but i want you to know, my love was never to impose suffocation to you. Its nothing but that.
I have made use of this time, to learn about self love, to control my emotions, and to connect to my inner self as well. I learnt that we are responsible of our own happiness.
And baby, I'm sure you too, have found a way to make peace with yourself. That it doesn't matter what people say about you as long as you are comfortable with yourself. That as long as you love yourself, it will be enough. And there is no need to impose unnecessary stress and responsibilities on yourself. I am glad that you now think in a more positive way, i am so proud of you baby.
Remember, i'm not going anywhere, I am just 2 steps behind you.
Love,
Rui
